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Mother Of My Children

by Black Belt Eagle Scout

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stimtrogel this the brace for my 90s whiplash.
all is transitory.
love to all
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Brian Miller This record is full of power. It's on the Best Stuff From 2018 list for sure. Favorite track: Soft Stud.
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waj Extraordinary LP, capped off by the magical "Sam, A Dream", evoking Liz Phair's "Stratford-on-Guy" and the Rolling Stones "Moonlight Mile" as closing tracks that create their own little magnetic world...
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vitoanthony3 KP is too talented. This is a timeless release, and a strong contender for AOTY. Favorite track: Soft Stud.
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Toastybob I can't remember the last time I was so excited to discover a new artist. "Keyboard" reminds me of Beach House. "Sam, a Dream" is another contender for best track. Favorite track: Keyboard.
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BENJAMINTO saw black belt eagle scout when they opened a 3-act bill in seattle

they gave one of the most memorable performances i've seen all year

this album is beautiful and sad and ~shreds~, listen to it all the time okay ? Favorite track: Soft Stud.
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about

“Having this identity—radical indigenous queer feminist—keeps me going. My music and my identity come from the same foundation of being a Native woman.” Katherine Paul (aka KP) is Black Belt Eagle Scout, and Mother of My Children is her debut album. Recorded in the middle of winter near her hometown in Northwest Washington, Paul’s connection to the landscape’s eerie beauty are palpable throughout as the album traces the full spectrum of confronting buried feelings and the loss of what life was supposed to look like. Paul reflects, “I wrote this album in the fall of 2016 after two pretty big losses in my life. My mentor, Geneviève Castrée, had just died from pancreatic cancer and the relationship I had with the first woman I loved had drastically lessened and changed.” Heavy and heartbroken, Paul found respite from the weight of such loss in the creation of these songs that “are about grief and love for people, but also about being a native person in what is the United States today.”

On Mother of My Children, the songs weave together to capture both the enduring and fleeting experiences of loss, frustration, and dreaming. The structures are traditional, but the lyrics don’t adhere to any format other than what feels right in the moment. Mother of My Children begins with lead single “Soft Stud,” which Paul describes as her “queer anthem.” It’s “about the hardships of queer desire within an open relationship.” It’s followed by “Indians Never Die,” a call out to colonizers and those who don’t respect the Earth. As Standing Rock was happening, many people in Paul’s life were coming together to fight for the most basic necessity to sustain human life: water. “Our treaty rights weren’t being honored. Imagine hearing on the news that the government doesn’t support you as a human being and never has. They don’t care about the water, they don’t care about how they are destroying what is around them. Indigenous people are the protectors of this land. Indians never die because this is our land that we will forever protect in the present and the afterlife.”

Paul grew up in a small Indian reservation, the Swinomish Indian Tribal Community, surrounded by family focused on native drumming, singing, and arts. From an early age, Paul was singing and dancing at powwows with one of her strongest memories at her family’s own powwow, called the All My Relations Powwow. Paul reminisces, “When I was younger, my only form of music was through the songs my ancestors taught the generations of my family. Singing in our language is a spiritual process and it carries on through me in how I create music today.” With the support of her family and a handful of bootleg Hole and Nirvana VHS tapes, Paul taught herself how to play guitar and drums as a teenager. In 2007, she moved to Portland, Oregon to attend college and get involved with the Rock’n’Roll Camp for Girls eventually diving deep into the city’s music scene playing guitar and drums in bands while evolving her artistry into what would later become Black Belt Eagle Scout.

Mother of My Children is a life chapter gently preserved. The access listeners have to such vulnerability feels special and generous.

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released September 14, 2018

Black Belt Eagle Scout is Katherine Paul - guitar, vocals, drums/percussion, bass, keyboard, vibraphone, organ and piano.

Recorded by Nich Wilbur at the Anacortes Unknown Recording Studio in Anacortes, WA.

Mixed by Nich and KP except for "Soft Stud" which was mixed by Benjamin Weikel and Brandon Summers at Helio Sound in Portland, OR.

Mastered by Benjamin Weikel and Brandon Summers.

Album photography by Natalie Eagan and album design by Tyler Ferrin.

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Track Name: Soft Stud
Surprises in the night
Won’t you have your way?
Open up the door I see
I know you’re taken

What is it to you?
Habits just don’t fade
Open, overcrowded love
I know you’re taken

I know you’re taken
Need you want you
I know you’re taken

What you say to me
Breathes in desperately
In my lungs and through my chest
I know you’re listening

Always through and through
I see it in your eyes
Wondering if you want me
I know you’re taken

I know you’re taken
Need you want you
I know you’re taken
Track Name: Indians Never Die
Wastin’
Wastin’
Wastin’ away

Wastin’
Wastin’
Wastin’ away

Do you ever notice what surrounds you?
When it’s all bright and tucked under

Do you ever notice what’s around you?
When it’s all right under our skin
Wastin’
Wastin’
Wastin’ away

Wastin’
Wastin’
Wastin’ away

Do you ever notice what surrounds you?
When it’s bright, wrapped up for you
Do you ever notice what’s around you?
When it’s all there, in the wake of you
Track Name: Keyboard
You know it surrounds you in the day
You know it surrounds you in the day
But it finds you in the night
Finds you in the night
Finds you in the night
Finds you in the night


Mother of My Children

Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you

Was in song
I first sung
When I discovered
Love for you

You
You
You
You

Are my light
In darkness and
The brightest times
Even though
My dream of mothers
I won’t know
Track Name: Yard
Keep em in the yard
Keep em in the yard
Keep em in the yard
Keep em in the yard

It is the light inside of us
That breathes the light in front of us
It breathes until it goes
And then it ends

Mmm.
Track Name: I Don't Have You In My Life
I don’t have you in my life
Just like anyone
Ever will really know

Night is in the light
Underneath the dark
Onto someone
I don’t understand about it

Wondering what human nature
Having
Understand the screts
Life is undefined

Winter
Nights have feeling
So much pleasure
In the night

Over-filling
In the light
Just like
Billings, Montana

Oh you got there
In the mud
Just like women
Around in the mud

Oh you found it
Come through light
I surround you

But I don’t have you in my life
I’m just what is around you
Took a moment
You forgot me
I’m just waving around you
Track Name: Just Lie Down
You aren’t yourself
What’s wrong
You aren’t yourself
What’s wrong

It’s in your head
Your heart
These eyes
Are coming apart

Just lie down
Head on the ground
Sky looks blue
Just like you

You aren’t yourself
What’s wrong
You aren’t yourself
What’s wrong

It’s in your mind
Your eyes
This soul
Of mine

Just lie down
Head on the ground
Sky looks blue
Just like you
Track Name: Sam, A Dream
I’d wait all night
Just to see you
I’d wait my whole life
Just to meet you

Well you know there’s not much time
For you and I
In the sky
Cos you know there’s not much longer
For our two hearts
In the clouds

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